I finished treatments last week Thursday! I figured it would be just the one last zap of weekly radiation but was surprised they decided to give me 1 last dose of chemo. I guess my blood count had risen enough that the oncologist figured we should go for it. So instead of just recovering from the throat soreness I got to deal with the flu like symptoms of chemo the past few days. Hopefully today will be better as I have only managed to get down 5 cans of Ensure over the past 3 days…
Prior to Thursday my throat was killing me – worse it has been throughout the treatment. Couldn’t talk, eat, drink or swallow without chugging some Visocane – or whatever. They did give me a prescription for Marinol – which is some type of marijuana in a pill form. I have taken 3 doses – but really don’t notice much difference in appetite. I told the Dr I “give up” on trying to eat – and really don’t care anymore …which brought me to an appointment with the treatment social worker… that conversation went something like this.. “So how are you doing? BAD… So how does that make you feel? BAD…What are you doing about it? COMPLAINING AND POUTING AND I REALLY DON’T WANT TO TALK TO YOU! “
Also on Tuesday I freaked out about putting on the mask! I had to get up off the table – take 3 Xantax and come back after about 30 minutes. Not sure what happened – but it might have been from the Vicodin plus marijuana and the fact that it was 100 degrees outside and felt like 30 degrees inside the treatment center.
Anyways – I made it through treatment and now wait something like 12 weeks to get a pet scan to see if the cancer is all gone… Does it matter??? – either way I have vowed to not go through this again!
I hope you feel better soon. I know just feeling better cheers a person.
I remember at the end of my treatments, I could not talk, eat, drink, didn’t feel like talking or even thinking. I was a zombee watching TV or looking at pictures in magazines. I felt like – just tell me when to be ready for doctor appts or such and get me there. I was warned I would feel worse before I felt better. They were correct. But better does come. My voice returned and the PET scan showed no cancer. That in itself cheered me up a bit.
Try to keep thinking there is light at he end of this dark feeling tunnel. Sunshine feelings will be there.
Hugs and prayers, Sandyjo
Thanks! I defiantly can relate to the zombie… I’m tired of watching meaningless late night movies.
Hi Tim! So happy you’re finished. But, be VERY VERY patient with yourself because recovery is painfully slow. You will get better…but its gonna take awhile. I am almost 8 weeks out and I am just getting out the house to run short errands. I am still mostly drinking ensure, still have tongue and throat soreness, and still struggling with my spirits. Radiation has been the most brutal experience I have ever had and I have had some very depressed moments. I even had some suicidal thoughts when I was really suffering. So, stay close to us and we will walk you through the recovery. I have learned so much from the other bloggers:) Keep your spirits up!
I had those same thoughts. I think most of us did. Now when I think back, it’s scary to think what could have happened when I feel so good now.
Thanks:) u r always so sweet!
The recovery process sucks just as bad as the treatment stage but last longer. You still need to keep up with the nutrition and hydration and continue to watch your weight.
I’m assuming you have excessive dry mouth and thick stringy mucus so continue with whatever mouth rinses you are using to keep your teeth bacteria free and it also helps with mouth and tongue sores.
Try and stay positive buddy and be glad treatments are freaking done
I’m so glad you’re done. I understand never going through this again. With time, the memmory fades but I still don’t know what I would do.
Recovery takes time. If I remember about two weeks post treatment, I quit vomiting and thought okay I can do this. About six weeks post treatment, I felt better.
Things happen slowly but suddenly. It’s like one day I was horribly sick and the next I was better. It’s surprising because you begin to think this is it, I’ll be like this forever and then you don’t.
Keep complaining and keep pouting. Do whatever it takes to survive and get through this. It’s about you and what you need/have to do.
Congratulations on completing your treatments. Hopefully you will not have too do it again, and the percentages are on your side. I get a kick out of some social workers, who should be called anti-social workers since some just don’t get it, don’t help, and try to steer you to certain places..$. I just got my evaluation my report from the Sw from two years ago, when I got copies of my in hospital treatment. I didn’t even know why she came to see me, it wasn’t upon request. Anyway, good luck with recovery.
Haven’t heard from you in a while- how is your recovery going??? Karen
Hey Tim- you doing okay? Hope you are just taking a break and living life : )
happy belated bday, Tim. Check in sometime! Hugs, Karen